The Perils Of Being A People Pleaser

Hey guys, happy new year! This is coming super late considering I'm typing this on the 30th of January. Actually, it's 11 PM so it's safe to say it's the last day of the month. But as they say, better late than never right? I don't have any lofty resolutions or goals for this year. I simply want to do well in school and enjoy my life. That second part is very key lol.

This post has been in the works for quite a while. First, I told myself that I would write it after I was done with exams. I finished them then I told myself I would write it once I got to England. I got to England on Friday and declared I would write it on Monday morning. But Sunday happened and it threw me off balance. In case you missed it (which I highly doubt), Kobe Bryant's helicopter crashed on Sunday and everyone on board passed away. It's an awful tragedy and it's rocked everyone so deeply, sometimes I think about it and I'm still in disbelief. My heart truly goes out to everyone affected by this tragedy in one way or another. So I practically spent Monday in bed doing nothing, just trying to process the news. There was no way I could write anything on such a day. Which brings us here, to this moment. I was literally washing pots in the kitchen when I got the desire to get my laptop and type so type I will.

Life Update: Moving Countries, Starting Med School, e.t.c.

Whew, I cannot believe that I'm back here. I was so sure that I would never blog again and that's not because anything happened, I just lost interest. Like sure, I've gone through times when I just couldn't be bothered with blogging but I have never lost complete interest like I did this year. It wasn't even planned, I just woke up one day and decided that I wasn't blogging again.

However, in the last few weeks, the blog kept coming back to me and I realized that I actually missed it and wanted to try again. What finally did it for me was reading some of my old posts. I miss writing posts, brainstorming post ideas, meeting new people through the comments section and reading other blogs. I'm not really sure of how things are going to be, I didn't really think this 'comeback' through. I'm literally typing this the morning after a night out with my makeup still on my face just so you get the idea of how things are right now. But I choose not to dwell on that, let's just get to catching up!

What To Watch This Weekend

Hello, hello. Long time no see guys. It's been a very weird month for me,  very draining. Lots of bad news, both personally and generally like in the news. It's all too much sometimes, like you don't even want to look at the news. So yeah, it's been weird but I'm determined to push past it all and embrace life as best as I can. How about you?

I've always preferred watching TV shows and series over movies, there's just something I love about the continuity that a series gives you. Also, there's nothing better than snuggling in your duvet with snacks and bingeing an entire season (or two) of your favourite show. I know I'm not the only one who sometimes struggles for what to watch so I've decided to share some of the things I've watched lately in case you happen to be looking for something new to watch as well. Enjoy. xx

Recent Reads

Hey everyone, happy new month!
It's April already, cannot believe that the first three months of the year went by so quickly. It's a bit scary you know? We'll blink and before you know it, it'll be December again and we'll be ringing in 2020 haha.

One of my goals for 2019 is to complete my Good Reads Reading Challenge and I set mine to 50 books. I've never actually completed the challenge but I'm hoping things will be different this year. I'm slightly behind on my reading schedule sha but I think I can still catch up. Here are some of the books that I've read recently.

Arrows of Rain x Okey Ndibe 
Rating: 4.5/5

I had heard about this book a bit in the past. Wasn't exactly sure if people liked it or not, I just knew about it. It was on my to-read list as I tend to add Nigerian (or African in general to be honest) books to my list a lot. Anyways, one random Saturday morning, I decided to finally give it a read and I was enthralled by the story after like the first chapter.

It is set in a country called Madia but it's very glaring once you start reading the book that it's about Nigeria. The characters bear Nigerian names and the historical and political landscape of the book is Nigerian. The story is about a homeless man,Buruku who is charged with the murder of a prostitute on the beach where he sleeps. A young reporter happens to be at the scene at the time and follows up the story, coming in contact with Buruku. Buruku decides to tell this young man his story and that's when the whole thing becomes so interesting. It's a story that highlights, the horrors of military rule in Nigeria, the aftermaths of colonialism, corruption, the consequences of silence and so on. I really enjoyed this story and the slight plot twist at the end was good too. I didn't care too much for the ending though, all in all, it was a good book and I was pleasantly surprised.

Thoughts On Turning Twenty

Yesterday, the 23rd of March was my twentieth birthday. It still feels so weird to say, me? A whole twenty years old? It definitely feels like the years have just flown past. I remember being in grade 5 and celebrating my tenth birthday, wearing a red frou-frou dress and a pink bow in my hair. I also remember my thirteenth, I had a Justin Bieber themed cake. So cringey now but it was so cool back then. These memories feel very recent to me so it's definitely quite strange that I turned 20.It's also a reminder that I've had this blog for eight years as I started it back in 2011 at the age of 12. Really grateful to be alive to witness 20 though, I do not take that for granted.

Why Journaling Has Been So Good For Me

Hey guys, how are you? I'm currently sitting in bed, typing this a week before it's supposed to go up. It's election day in Nigeria and I've been following events on Twitter, a lot of things have been really wild and I jus wish I could fast-forward to when the winner is announced even though I already have a hunch about who it'll be as do most people.

Anyways, I mentioned in my previous post that I was planning on writing a post on journaling and here I am, keeping my word. I've always been a worrier and an overthinker but it always only lasted for short periods, we're talking about hours or maybe a day at most. But towards the end of last year, I started worrying about a lot of different things and one week turned to two and then to three and before I knew it, I had deeply rooted anxiety almost constantly. It was so stressful and mentally draining guys, like damn. And the worst part is that, it was completely internal. You couldn't tell from the outside.

Life Lately

Hello people,
It's been a while, hasn't it? So much for consistency am I right? I did mention in my previous post that my laptop stopped working and that's *partly* the reason for my silence on here. I couldn't keep up with blogging on my phone, it's so stressful. But in the spirit of trying to be consistent and not slipping into old habits, here's me typing this out with a borrowed laptop.

 As it's been a couple of weeks, I thought it would be great to do a mini-catchup on the different parts of my life.

Random Musings: Do Your Books Ever Embarrass You?

Greetings people,

It’s been just over two (or is it three?) weeks since I last showed my face here. My laptop decided to stop working. Initially, I thought it was the charger and promptly ordered a new one. Imagine my surprise when it arrived and the laptop still wouldn’t come on. Welp, can’t even be mad. I’ve had it for ages and it’s certainly done its job. It’s just tough as I hadn’t planned on replacing it until the start of med school which isn’t till the Fall. Laptops are pricey guys.

Currently typing this on the Notes app on my phone, decided to simply make do with what I have for now. Oh by the way, happy new month!  That was definitely the fastest January ever.

PS: This book is totally unrelated to this post. I just really love this picture and can’t believe I took it.

What It Means When A Man Falls From The Sky : Book Review

Greetings everyone,

How are you and how is your January going?  I happen to be having a very productive day and I'm really happy about it. Typing this post and going to the gym are the last things on my to-do list for today. I nearly backed out of putting this up today, let's pray I don't back out of going to the gym haha. I absolutely love reviewing books and today I'll be talking about What It Means....(the title is way too long to type again, okay?). Without further ado, let's get into it! 

Skincare Lately

Damn, it's really been a minute since I put up a skincare post. To be fair though, I didn't do a lot of posting in 2018 so that's probably the reason.

When I say my skin has been acting up lately, I'm not even joking. Just this afternoon, my mum asked me why I had a huge ass pimple on my cheek. Now don't get me wrong, I don't have perfect skin, not even close. I struggle with hyperpigmentation, clogged pores and texture issues but not acne. I've been fortunate in that area, I rarely ever break out. Which is why it's so bizarre that I've been breaking out fairly frequently as of late. It's nothing over the top but it's still weird and I don't like it at all. I think it's something to do with my diet as my skincare routine hasn't changed recently but we'll see. Hopefully, I can figure out what's causing it pretty soon.